(You know I am a trying hard poet too! LOL)
The First Times
I almost forgot everything about OUR first times
Until I was given time to bring everything again in my mind
Things that we shared though thick and thin
All the laughs and all the grins.
I am not your first love, neither you for me
Is it matters anyway if now is here
What makes it special, I know for sure
The antonym of FIRST, it’s for you and me.
You had a journey for these past four years
According to you “…with you by my side”
Each of your step, is succeeded by my step
No one can replace all those first times…
At a snap of a finger, another first time happened
A first time, I CANNOT HANDLE.
My heart is broken into billion times
Yes, another first time
I hope I can read your heart and mind
So I will know that you are just teaching mine
What makes me afraid? Now it is only YOU.
Everything that you utter, ME is omitted and WE too…
I feel so weak that everything’s uncertain for me
I am a loser; I do not want to be
You even said “…but did i take the right path
that i can never find you again. . .”
Your choice seem to throw me
A choice that thorns me
I have cried and still cries because I am lost and hurt
Not because you’re falling for someone but for other grounds
I hope I have used the wrong words “you’re falling”
I really hope it is “I’ve fell”, yes “I’ve fell”
I have been there a lot of times
Even battling with myself twice as much those times
But I am still standing here, my heart belongs to you
Forever, God knows …undeniably forever.
Now I know how Love is great
To me it’s the First time it reveals itself
It is so powerful that I can scarifies everything
Just to make you come home, right just before our 5th Anniversary …
